Update

I've lost my motivation to work out. It's been weeks. I keep eating and eating to make me feel better. This depression is really hard to get over because I was sucker punched by someone I trusted. This shitty feeling has gotten the best of me. It's no wonder why I'm losing all my focus because of a stupid breakup.

I know I could have done something to prevent it from happening. I know I could have made a difference. Somehow I still feel stuck in the moment. I hate that there is no closure. Karma is a bitch though.

Whatever.

This time I won't let it happen again. I won't let you use me anymore. I should've seen it coming.

Your friends were right. You are a bad person.
Your parents were right. You are selfish.
You're right. You are bad for me.
I was wrong. For giving my all...

Day 60

Understanding Myself

I think it's much easier to do these workouts. I've shifted to a stronger mentality. Understanding people is hard because I figured that the most person to understand is myself. If one can understand themselves, then people will understand them. People can't get to their goals because they don't act. Act to get. If we accept ourselves that we do not understand, they we can believe in ourselves to be greater. We need to learn to give credit to others. Wake up and see who you are. Why do we fear? If I choose to overcome fear, then I can do it. The individual is the best person to understand.

New Photos After 30 Days

Hello!!!!!

First 30 Days Almost

So far, so good. My body is more active than before. I feel more energetic. Let's hope I still keep it up. I need to change my diet soon if I want to get the results faster. Eating the rights foods is limited. I wish I had more healthy foods to eat. Protein and veggies will certainly make a big improvement if there was an abundance of it. Damn you inflation.

Week 1 Completed

So far, so good.

I only have 12 more weeks to go. I need to keep pushing. I also signed up online for beachbody.com. My coach really wants to help me get through this.

I need all the motivation I can get.

It's Only Day 4

I missed a day yesterday and did shoulders and arms. Although it was my brother's bday yesterday, I feel bad for missing a day. Shoot! I need to start eating right too and have coffee at least no more than 3 times a week. The veggie broth needs to be used!

Tomorrow, I will do Yoga in the morning and Legs and back at night. That shouldn't be too hard, no? Good night.